I was raised as a Latter Day Saint in Utah, and just about everybody else we knew was Mormon, too. As a very young child, I didn’t really understand that other religions actually existed. Yet by the time I’d reached the wise old age of fourteen, I sat my mother down and told her I couldn’t be Mormon anymore. I had to know what else was out there and believed that in order to really explore the world, I had to leave the LDS faith, and free myself from all the expectations and responsibilities of church membership.
There was no way I could have known it at the time, but over the dozen or so years to follow, that decision would end up completely annihilating the way I saw myself and the world around me. Now I see that growing up with all “the answers” was such a warm, safe existence. Everything was clear. Everything was either black or white. Moral or ethical ambiguity simply didn’t exist. At any given moment, you were either committing a sin or you weren’t.
In the years since, I’ve learned to create my own “answers”, to develop my own personal sense of values and ethics. I’ve based them on my life experiences and decisions, but things are far less warm and safe, far less black and white. Within the shades of grey, I’m forced to pay attention to the details, because in an entire world of grey, those details actually matter. And God is, after all, in the details, isn’t she?
In “Tuesday Morning” Darrow put two characters into a morass of conflicting details, and after I begged him for months, he finally gave me permission to direct. When I told him how I saw the piece, and he replied that many of those details differed with his own, he ended up taking the script back into the lab to add even more. We were then able to find an excellent Rick in Ian Kerch and an amazing Jewels in Jaimi Paige. Then with the help of Ryan, Kendall, Anthony, Kyle, Denny and about a dozen other talented, detail-oriented artists, I’d like to think we gave those details depth, shape and weight; forming a whole which demonstrates exactly how difficult it can be to stand in judgement over the choices others make for love.
That said, after the mere eleven minutes of our film, my hope is not that you agree with my opinion of Rick and Jewels’ actions, but that you have formed your own.
Enjoy the film.
– Chad Kukahiko, director of “Tuesday Morning”